While contemplating and reflecting on yesterday’s long entry, some things have become apparent to me:
- my thoughts are quite unfocused, and
- my writing is slightly complicated, with the result that
- the point is probably difficult to see.
Being unfocused and/or confused (almost an anagram!) is one of my characteristics. Everything is interesting, grabs my attention, holds a part of my mind on a leash, and I find it difficult to let go. I am not even consciously aware of most of these influences! And thus my mind is governed by things related to the past, things related to the future, things not related to the present moment. No wonder that my chain of thoughts, conceived in the present, appears to be slightly chaotic and difficult to follow. No wonder that when I concentrate the few free resources of my mind on a task, my multitasking abilities approach zero, and still I am far away from really focusing.
The few times in which I managed to become consciously aware of those “leashes” and actually releasing or cutting them were truly outstanding experiences. I am not accustomed to handle the full potential of my mind, to think with direction, to speak and write with precision. These goals will require my constant practice and training. But even the very experience of such awareness is worthwhile: enhanced perception, oneness with the present moment, oneness with the world around me, and the freedom of choice.
Maybe your question still remains unanswered: “What’s the point?”
Very simple: exchange of experiences, sharing of thoughts, mutual feedback, constant evaluation, and steady improvement. Information wants to be free. Communication is one key. Encountering a new (sometimes very simple) perspective on something that seemed already “known” to me would sometimes grant me insights that sweep me off my feet. Now, after all that I have received, I also wish to give.
Dearest reader, I do not claim the ability to sweep you off your feet, and certainly would never intend to do so against your will. But if my writings contain something that helps you on your own path in the slightest possible way, they have already fulfilled their purpose.
However, our communication shall not remain one-sided: I must also learn to improve my listening capabilities. Listening is a multi-faceted key of communication, and it is worthwhile to discover all aspects. For beginners like me, listening is a lot easier while remaining silent. Therefore I will shut up now and end with a beautiful quote that is attributed to Albert Einstein:
It is enough if one tries merely to comprehend a little of this mystery every day.”